Monday, December 22, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Last Exam, and Other Ramblings
So, I've written 4 exams so far. To be honest, I've found them relatively easy and straightforward, though others' reactions worry me a bit in that maybe I missed something that I shouldn't have. I'm going to Vancouver in one day =) so I'm pretty excited for that as well!
It's interesting to see how the Conservatives vs Coalition debate plays out. I think both sides have valid points, but it's just a shame to see how everything has turned out. To see the Liberals, NDP, and Bloc try to overthrow the government at such a time where we need solid leadership. Who knows how long the coalition will last.
Or to see the Conservatives prolong Parliament, shutting it down until January, just to try and hold onto power. Of course, the Conservatives aren't exactly offering the kind of strengths we need in our government at this point in time, either.
I think the interesting thing is how we're so naive as people. How we can be influenced by words such as "coup" and "undemocratic."
We need to move to a Single-Transferable-Vote system. Although that would lead to minorities all the time.
It's interesting to see how the Conservatives vs Coalition debate plays out. I think both sides have valid points, but it's just a shame to see how everything has turned out. To see the Liberals, NDP, and Bloc try to overthrow the government at such a time where we need solid leadership. Who knows how long the coalition will last.
Or to see the Conservatives prolong Parliament, shutting it down until January, just to try and hold onto power. Of course, the Conservatives aren't exactly offering the kind of strengths we need in our government at this point in time, either.
I think the interesting thing is how we're so naive as people. How we can be influenced by words such as "coup" and "undemocratic."
We need to move to a Single-Transferable-Vote system. Although that would lead to minorities all the time.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
First Exam
Hmm...
I went through my first university final. Wasn't too bad. It's definitely a lot harder than in high school, and requires a lot more studying. But overall, I think I did okay.
4 more to go, and they only get harder =(
I went through my first university final. Wasn't too bad. It's definitely a lot harder than in high school, and requires a lot more studying. But overall, I think I did okay.
4 more to go, and they only get harder =(
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Success!
Yesterday, I got the good news that one of my applications (for ASEC Winter Board... I did not get accepted into a Firat Year Position in the Fall) went through, and I got the position! It's great to see things turn around, and it really is a blessing (along with the help of some people, they know who they are).
On another related note, exams are coming up, with my first one this Saturday. Here's to hoping I do well! Studying hard >.<
On another related note, exams are coming up, with my first one this Saturday. Here's to hoping I do well! Studying hard >.<
Monday, November 24, 2008
Networking
This weekend, we really got to know the concept of networking. I had the opportunity to meet some great entrepreneurs, and will hope to continue talking to them. It's been amazing though, the power of networking.
To think that...
1) You'd offer to help people that you've only met once, even if you have no vested interest in their success
2) You'd continue to talk to people that there's a 95% chance you probably won't see again
It's quite nice from my point of view, but I guess networking is really a two-way avenue. While I am getting help from those with more experience (who have not been shy in giving me sound advice), I am also expected to help those still in high school, and, eventually, those who are less experienced than I am. And those to the left and right of me too. Who knows, maybe we'll need favours from each other someday.
But the concept of networking, it's beautiful. Helping people because you want to. Maybe people do have ulterior motives. But based on my experiences, with people whom I met once at a dinner table e-mailing me with opportunities in the summer, I don't see it.
To think that...
1) You'd offer to help people that you've only met once, even if you have no vested interest in their success
2) You'd continue to talk to people that there's a 95% chance you probably won't see again
It's quite nice from my point of view, but I guess networking is really a two-way avenue. While I am getting help from those with more experience (who have not been shy in giving me sound advice), I am also expected to help those still in high school, and, eventually, those who are less experienced than I am. And those to the left and right of me too. Who knows, maybe we'll need favours from each other someday.
But the concept of networking, it's beautiful. Helping people because you want to. Maybe people do have ulterior motives. But based on my experiences, with people whom I met once at a dinner table e-mailing me with opportunities in the summer, I don't see it.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
ASEC Case Competition
I've been spending the majority of the previous two days at a case competition, where we attended workshops on teamwork, studying, and being professional, as well as coming up with presentations in a short period of time.
Saturday - Accounting
Sponsored by the ICAO, we were given 15 minutes to talk about the conflict of interest between different users of financial statements, and analyze the cost-benefits of having some aspects of the financial statement included, arguing whether they were or were not helpful, especially in the current state of our economy.
I absolutely bombed this section (15 minute preparation for a 10 minute presentation!?). I was unsure of what I wanted to say, and I tensed up, which is weird for me, since I generally do not get nervous about public speaking. The judge was nice, but I could tell he wasn't extremely impressed. I stuttered my way through it, and kept going in circles about the economy. Oh well, it definitely will help me in the future, and I learned from my errors.
Sunday - Marketing
We got into groups of four (randomly, I didn't know anyone in my group) and market a product. We got 30 minutes to create a 10 minute presentation, and we were not allowed to market the randomly selected product for its conventional use. We drew a egg poacher, and turned it into a childrens' lunchbox. I spoke about the current flailing state of our economy, and how inexpensive these boxes would be for the families struggling to make ends meet. We did an amazing job, and finished first out of 24 or so teams. I felt really confident speaking, and we were able to answer questions very well, showing that we had really thought about what we were marketing. It was good too, because the case asked us to consider the current state of our economy and how it may affect spending and marketing, and we really did a fantastic job about it.
Made me feel better after a crappy solo presentation. Too bad there was no monetary prize (the solo accounting presentation had a $400 prize for 1st).
Saturday - Accounting
Sponsored by the ICAO, we were given 15 minutes to talk about the conflict of interest between different users of financial statements, and analyze the cost-benefits of having some aspects of the financial statement included, arguing whether they were or were not helpful, especially in the current state of our economy.
I absolutely bombed this section (15 minute preparation for a 10 minute presentation!?). I was unsure of what I wanted to say, and I tensed up, which is weird for me, since I generally do not get nervous about public speaking. The judge was nice, but I could tell he wasn't extremely impressed. I stuttered my way through it, and kept going in circles about the economy. Oh well, it definitely will help me in the future, and I learned from my errors.
Sunday - Marketing
We got into groups of four (randomly, I didn't know anyone in my group) and market a product. We got 30 minutes to create a 10 minute presentation, and we were not allowed to market the randomly selected product for its conventional use. We drew a egg poacher, and turned it into a childrens' lunchbox. I spoke about the current flailing state of our economy, and how inexpensive these boxes would be for the families struggling to make ends meet. We did an amazing job, and finished first out of 24 or so teams. I felt really confident speaking, and we were able to answer questions very well, showing that we had really thought about what we were marketing. It was good too, because the case asked us to consider the current state of our economy and how it may affect spending and marketing, and we really did a fantastic job about it.
Made me feel better after a crappy solo presentation. Too bad there was no monetary prize (the solo accounting presentation had a $400 prize for 1st).
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Keeping Up With The American Election
It's pretty much over. Barring some West-Coast miracle (not gonna happen), Barack Obama will be our next president.
In some ways, it's great. Obama is a symbol of hope, of change. He's been profoundly against the war, and he shows great promise. As well, he is just another example of how racial barriers are falling.
In other ways, it's disappointing. We see reverse racism, inexperience, questionable morals.
There is a lot of good and bad that comes with each candidate. Contrary to popular opinion, Jesus isn't a Republican.
One has to wonder, however, what this means for the United States of America.
In some ways, it's great. Obama is a symbol of hope, of change. He's been profoundly against the war, and he shows great promise. As well, he is just another example of how racial barriers are falling.
In other ways, it's disappointing. We see reverse racism, inexperience, questionable morals.
There is a lot of good and bad that comes with each candidate. Contrary to popular opinion, Jesus isn't a Republican.
One has to wonder, however, what this means for the United States of America.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
In Class
The temptation to be online in class is quite large, which is why I don't bring my laptop to class.
But, today, I did. And, alas, I am online during a very boring lecture. The class is generally pretty easy, and most of the work is done outside of class.
Of course, a ridiculous proportion of our mark is based on a 7-week game I play. Quite ridiculous, to be honest.
On other notes, I moved down to an easier Computer Science course, while taking a midterm for said course on Monday. I've also fallen behind on assignments (relatively... usually I'm done Friday's assignments by now), so I'm sort of worried.
It's the middle of the week already... wow. Not much else to say at the moment (sorry for the semi-mediocre poasting).
But, today, I did. And, alas, I am online during a very boring lecture. The class is generally pretty easy, and most of the work is done outside of class.
Of course, a ridiculous proportion of our mark is based on a 7-week game I play. Quite ridiculous, to be honest.
On other notes, I moved down to an easier Computer Science course, while taking a midterm for said course on Monday. I've also fallen behind on assignments (relatively... usually I'm done Friday's assignments by now), so I'm sort of worried.
It's the middle of the week already... wow. Not much else to say at the moment (sorry for the semi-mediocre poasting).
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Dealing With Insecurity
It's pretty clear: everyone wants to be more. Smarter, better-looking, funnier, more athletic... there's a lot of ways we go on our impossible mission.
Others know this, too. Marketing is often designed to tell us how we can improve. How we can make ourselves worth more. Different products all attempt to help the consumer in a very shallow way.
And then we can look at ourselves. How we compare whether someone is good-looking or not. Or determining ourselves by the grades we get. It's a never-ending cycle of sadness, despair, and self-centeredness.
And what happens if we actually got what we wanted? Would we really be happy? Would we want more, always discontent as we find others to compare ourselves to? Maybe we'd want less. Maybe what we want is just fool's gold.
We, as people, change. We get opportunities to project an image that differs from who we truly are. And many of us do: it's convenient, to say the least. I know that I do.
But if that is what we truly want, maybe what we really need to change isn't something that can be measured.
Others know this, too. Marketing is often designed to tell us how we can improve. How we can make ourselves worth more. Different products all attempt to help the consumer in a very shallow way.
And then we can look at ourselves. How we compare whether someone is good-looking or not. Or determining ourselves by the grades we get. It's a never-ending cycle of sadness, despair, and self-centeredness.
And what happens if we actually got what we wanted? Would we really be happy? Would we want more, always discontent as we find others to compare ourselves to? Maybe we'd want less. Maybe what we want is just fool's gold.
We, as people, change. We get opportunities to project an image that differs from who we truly are. And many of us do: it's convenient, to say the least. I know that I do.
But if that is what we truly want, maybe what we really need to change isn't something that can be measured.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
I <3 Kelsey Chow
Apparently Kelsey Chow is returning to One Tree Hill as Gigi. I haven't watched the past few episodes, but I hope this is true.
Oh, celebrity crushes.
Oh, celebrity crushes.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Lonely
You don't realize how much everything has changed until everything has slowed down.
And, right now, at this moment, it hurts.
And, right now, at this moment, it hurts.
Fact Check
http://www.factcheck.org/
Use it, before you think that Sarah Palin tried to ban books in libraries, or before you think that Obama has aligned himself with terrorists.
Now, we really need one in Canada.
Use it, before you think that Sarah Palin tried to ban books in libraries, or before you think that Obama has aligned himself with terrorists.
Now, we really need one in Canada.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
A Lonely Thanksgiving
So,
It turns out I will be stuck at Waterloo for Thanksgiving. What a special way to spend it......
I had a couple of offers from students to go over to their places, but my paranoia/"pai seh"'ness made me refuse, of course. I was also planning on visiting a few friends at Queen's, but I just realized I have two midterms next week, and a whole lot of homework, and now I feel the urgency to work hard and stay ahead (since I know that if I went over, I wouldn't do much work anyway). Saves me some money as well (some being a lot).
On another unrelated note, I really need a haircut. Or maybe I'll just grow it out. Who knows?
It turns out I will be stuck at Waterloo for Thanksgiving. What a special way to spend it......
I had a couple of offers from students to go over to their places, but my paranoia/"pai seh"'ness made me refuse, of course. I was also planning on visiting a few friends at Queen's, but I just realized I have two midterms next week, and a whole lot of homework, and now I feel the urgency to work hard and stay ahead (since I know that if I went over, I wouldn't do much work anyway). Saves me some money as well (some being a lot).
On another unrelated note, I really need a haircut. Or maybe I'll just grow it out. Who knows?
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
An Introduction to Failure
Throughout High School, failure was never an option. It was success, or even greater success. Things I did generally had no repercussions, and I had little difficult accomplishing what I sought out to do.
I guess two failures in two days was an extreme disappointment to me. Outside of failing my driving test the first time, I have never experienced such disheartening times in my life. Essentially, it makes me feel that who I am is not enough.
Nonetheless, I know that I have to continue, life goes on. I cannot dwell on the mistakes I made, but have to hope to continue to improve, and to become a better person.
There will be other opportunities, other moments of greatness, other moments of sadness, and I guess it's time to enter. The best moments of my life never exist without the worst moments, the deep pains.
Open wide this window.
I guess two failures in two days was an extreme disappointment to me. Outside of failing my driving test the first time, I have never experienced such disheartening times in my life. Essentially, it makes me feel that who I am is not enough.
Nonetheless, I know that I have to continue, life goes on. I cannot dwell on the mistakes I made, but have to hope to continue to improve, and to become a better person.
There will be other opportunities, other moments of greatness, other moments of sadness, and I guess it's time to enter. The best moments of my life never exist without the worst moments, the deep pains.
Open wide this window.
Monday, September 29, 2008
My First Midterm
I took a midterm for CS today, at 7:00 PM. It didn't go so bad (and there were so many bonus marks anyway... up to 33% bonus).
I've also had a chance to meet a lot of new people recently. Very cool.
Surprisingly, I don't miss Vancouver that much
I've also had a chance to meet a lot of new people recently. Very cool.
Surprisingly, I don't miss Vancouver that much
Friday, September 26, 2008
Ready
Spending a Friday Night in my room, doing homework. Not what I had hoped, but it is what I will have to live with. Long nights, long days, homework all the time.
But I think I'm ready.
But I think I'm ready.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Two Interviews (and Vancouver)
I had two interviews for Accounting positions today. One was to help organize an accounting conference in May (which would delay my return to Vancouver by about two weeks)... the other was to help promote accounting events throughout the year.
I wore relatively formal clothing for both (even though one said casual dress was fine). People looked at me curiously (too early for co-op!), but that's okay.
The interview for promotion of accounting events did not go so well. It went decently, I suppose. But I definitely did not do as good of a job as I usually do when I speak. Nervous, I was not (too much), but I just felt handcuffed by some of their questions.
The other one for the conference went amazing, in my opinion. The interviewers were candid and friendly, and I was candid and friendly in return. I had a chance to meet one of the interviewers last week, and made a sparkling impression already, so I'm banking on getting this one... hopefully. Which would delay my return to Vancouver.
Oddly enough, I don't miss Vancouver so much as I thought I would. Certain individuals? Yes. Definitely. But not the place in general. Although it is much more beautiful than in Waterloo, that's for sure.
Outside of a decent number of people, the main thing I miss is good food. I tried Korean food yesterday, it was so-so. Julie said it's better in Vancouver (we are all going to get together during Christmastime, hopefully). I have eaten other Asian food exactly once here in Waterloo, and it wasn't really Asian (or good).
At least the Spicy Chicken Wraps are good. Though they make me perspire like crazy each time I eat one. It allows me to drink two bottles of water per wrap I eat.
I wore relatively formal clothing for both (even though one said casual dress was fine). People looked at me curiously (too early for co-op!), but that's okay.
The interview for promotion of accounting events did not go so well. It went decently, I suppose. But I definitely did not do as good of a job as I usually do when I speak. Nervous, I was not (too much), but I just felt handcuffed by some of their questions.
The other one for the conference went amazing, in my opinion. The interviewers were candid and friendly, and I was candid and friendly in return. I had a chance to meet one of the interviewers last week, and made a sparkling impression already, so I'm banking on getting this one... hopefully. Which would delay my return to Vancouver.
Oddly enough, I don't miss Vancouver so much as I thought I would. Certain individuals? Yes. Definitely. But not the place in general. Although it is much more beautiful than in Waterloo, that's for sure.
Outside of a decent number of people, the main thing I miss is good food. I tried Korean food yesterday, it was so-so. Julie said it's better in Vancouver (we are all going to get together during Christmastime, hopefully). I have eaten other Asian food exactly once here in Waterloo, and it wasn't really Asian (or good).
At least the Spicy Chicken Wraps are good. Though they make me perspire like crazy each time I eat one. It allows me to drink two bottles of water per wrap I eat.
Friday, September 19, 2008
I'm In Love... With Me
As I mentioned, today I locked myself out of my room, being the genius that I am. Of course, that also means a $1 fee to my don. Hopefully that's the last time it happens, or I will be broke soon enough.
I sat in the lounge, flipping through each and every channel, unable to find anything that interested me in the slightest. Oddly enough, a girl (not from the building) comes into the room, and sits, waiting for another guy in the building. And we talk.
Decent-looking (and Asian American), ridiculously intelligent (I would probably classify her as a genius), well-spoken (I think English is her first language), and loves to play video games, especially role playing ones. We talked about her accomplishments, her goals, lots of stuff. And we talked about her personal life.
It turns out she has had 3 boyfriends in 3 weeks (to be more clear... 3 ex-boyfriends). One of them did not attend the school (she met him online in one of the games she played). The other two... she started going out with them within days of meeting each of them. Naturally, I asked how this could happen.
To be honest, I got the answer I expected. She said she falls in "liking" (she was careful enough to not use the word "love" at any point, which one has to appreciate, I suppose) and out of "liking" very quickly.
But my guess is there's more. She keeps hanging out with her ex-es (weird, huh?), and has constantly been trying to visit this guy in our building (which is how I ran into her in the first place, other than the fact that she recognizes me from the Advanced Computer Science class we take together even though I didn't recognize her). I think it's just that we all want to be loved. For some of us, that involves flirting to get that kind of affection. I know I've been a victim of that before.
And I know that I've been a perpetrator. One of my best friends once told me I was a flirt. Of course, she was saying it in a friendly manner, and it was I who brought up the question in the first place. She tried to rationalize it by saying I was just being friendly and whatnot, but it made me wonder. And I guess this conversation today brought it back up. Maybe we just want to be loved.
Maybe I just want to be loved.
I sat in the lounge, flipping through each and every channel, unable to find anything that interested me in the slightest. Oddly enough, a girl (not from the building) comes into the room, and sits, waiting for another guy in the building. And we talk.
Decent-looking (and Asian American), ridiculously intelligent (I would probably classify her as a genius), well-spoken (I think English is her first language), and loves to play video games, especially role playing ones. We talked about her accomplishments, her goals, lots of stuff. And we talked about her personal life.
It turns out she has had 3 boyfriends in 3 weeks (to be more clear... 3 ex-boyfriends). One of them did not attend the school (she met him online in one of the games she played). The other two... she started going out with them within days of meeting each of them. Naturally, I asked how this could happen.
To be honest, I got the answer I expected. She said she falls in "liking" (she was careful enough to not use the word "love" at any point, which one has to appreciate, I suppose) and out of "liking" very quickly.
But my guess is there's more. She keeps hanging out with her ex-es (weird, huh?), and has constantly been trying to visit this guy in our building (which is how I ran into her in the first place, other than the fact that she recognizes me from the Advanced Computer Science class we take together even though I didn't recognize her). I think it's just that we all want to be loved. For some of us, that involves flirting to get that kind of affection. I know I've been a victim of that before.
And I know that I've been a perpetrator. One of my best friends once told me I was a flirt. Of course, she was saying it in a friendly manner, and it was I who brought up the question in the first place. She tried to rationalize it by saying I was just being friendly and whatnot, but it made me wonder. And I guess this conversation today brought it back up. Maybe we just want to be loved.
Maybe I just want to be loved.
Growing Up
I locked myself out of my room. Whoops.
Will cost me a dollar to get it open.
Responsibility, it's a thing you want until you get it. Doing laundry when you have to. Eating healthily. Making sure you have your keys when you leave the room (whoops...). Showing up to every class, because no one will tell you to show up. Handing in assignments on time. Keeping up with readings.
It's so much in such a short time.
Will cost me a dollar to get it open.
Responsibility, it's a thing you want until you get it. Doing laundry when you have to. Eating healthily. Making sure you have your keys when you leave the room (whoops...). Showing up to every class, because no one will tell you to show up. Handing in assignments on time. Keeping up with readings.
It's so much in such a short time.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Sunday, September 14, 2008
So Won't You Hold Me?
He's there, even when I fail.
When I'm not enough.
When all I have is him.
When I'm true.
When I'm hidden.
When I'm not enough.
When all I have is him.
When I'm true.
When I'm hidden.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
When It's Right
Sometimes, we just... know that it is time to move on. Maybe it was never a good fit in the first place. Maybe the welcome wore out. We just want to have the best for everyone, to spare the future pain with present sacrifice.
But, you know, in the end, what is best will hopefully come together. It is what we hope for.
But, you know, in the end, what is best will hopefully come together. It is what we hope for.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Chinese Church
Today, I attended a Chinese Church (it's actually Cantonese, but there's an English service, so it's not such a big deal). It was okay... the music was rusty (but it's a small church, and the younger kids were running it since most of the uni students are just getting back), and the pastor clearly was not extremely comfortable in English.
I'm not exactly sure what I'm looking for, but maybe a Chinese Church isn't the right thing for me. Chinese churches tend to be uptight and more traditional... I love hymns and whatnot, but I just don't fit that mold I suppose. Not a bash against these churches... they are great at serving their purpose, but maybe it's something I have to extend beyond.
One day, I'll find the perfect place to call my home church.
I'm not exactly sure what I'm looking for, but maybe a Chinese Church isn't the right thing for me. Chinese churches tend to be uptight and more traditional... I love hymns and whatnot, but I just don't fit that mold I suppose. Not a bash against these churches... they are great at serving their purpose, but maybe it's something I have to extend beyond.
One day, I'll find the perfect place to call my home church.
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Finding Tight Friends
It's been such a blessing. I guess school-based Christian friends was something I never had an opportunity to experience. It is fortunate that I met a few of them prior to leaving this year, and they've really been a blessing so far.
As for a church, I haven't found one yet (naturally), but I will make attempt number one today (Sunday). Wish me luck!
So far, it's been a hot, busy, week. I can't believe I'm saying this... but I really want classes to start. Yes, I'm a bit crazy in the head.
Today, we went to the farmer's market and got some groceries. Fun stuff.
Sorry for the abbreviated and off-the-wall post... I just lack so much sleep.
As for a church, I haven't found one yet (naturally), but I will make attempt number one today (Sunday). Wish me luck!
So far, it's been a hot, busy, week. I can't believe I'm saying this... but I really want classes to start. Yes, I'm a bit crazy in the head.
Today, we went to the farmer's market and got some groceries. Fun stuff.
Sorry for the abbreviated and off-the-wall post... I just lack so much sleep.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Test Day!
I just took an English writing test (one apparently needs to pass before he or she can enroll in 4th semester)... it wasn't so bad. I think I did well.
But just from the different attitudes of the profs and whatnot, one can tell it is a very different environment than high school.
As well... have fun everyone. School's back! Woooo... no, not really.
But just from the different attitudes of the profs and whatnot, one can tell it is a very different environment than high school.
As well... have fun everyone. School's back! Woooo... no, not really.
Monday, September 1, 2008
Wow
It's been a great time so far at Waterloo. Getting to meet new people was pretty exciting. Our don is a pretty funny and thoughtful guy, AND he's a fine arts major, which means we get some pretty cool stuff. The people in the dorm are generally quite friendly as well.
That being said, I do sometimes still feel like I miss people in Vancouver! But I'm definitely a lot more secure in my belief that Waterloo was the right decision.
That being said, I do sometimes still feel like I miss people in Vancouver! But I'm definitely a lot more secure in my belief that Waterloo was the right decision.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Thanks
For all the memories.
For the times we shared.
For the laughing
The crying
The good and bad
For each and every day
For the messenger conversations
For keeping me up
And being with me when I fell
There's no way I can properly thank all of you. But I appreciate all you've meant to me and all that you've given me, and how you've changed my life.
For the times we shared.
For the laughing
The crying
The good and bad
For each and every day
For the messenger conversations
For keeping me up
And being with me when I fell
There's no way I can properly thank all of you. But I appreciate all you've meant to me and all that you've given me, and how you've changed my life.
Politics and the Church
I still remember, I think it was in 2005 in the Canadian General Election, a sermon from FEC's now-retired senior pastor, translated in English by one of the current pastors. Essentially, the sermon lauded Stephen Harper for his sentiments and his beliefs, while ragging on Paul Martin. Furthermore, the sermon extended beyond the issues. The sermon touched base on how Paul Martin had considered undermining his party (which was never really a real threat, he was known to be next-in-line to Jean Chretien), while how Stephen Harper patiently waited his turn to be leader (even though he was never a clear-cut leader in the first place... it's hard to say he was being patient). Nonetheless, it brought about an interesting though... how far should politics go in the Church?
Of course, I personally thought it to be despicable. The translator may have been assumed to be of the same opinion as the speaker, because they were both pastors. They may not have shared the same views. At the same time, it was hardly evident that Conservatives stood up for moral values anyway. We haven't seen anything done in the 2 plus years that Stephen Harper has been in charge. Yes, a gay marriage reversal would cause an uproar... but then why does it matter who we vote for if none will change it (assuming one is against gay marriage, which I am not really against)? To be honest, if the Liberals come up with a better policy to help the environment and the economy, and to cut taxes, I'd probably vote for them.
In the same way, it happens in every election. A lot of Evangelicals were frustrated when the choice was between Obama and McCain, who is relatively moderate and not very strong on the issues. However, the addition of Palin, a strong conservative, has caused a lot of Evangelical leaders to throw their support behind McCain. Radio show hosts such as James Dobson have told viewers to vote McCain (many had blasted McCain in the past), and I'm assuming it will happen again in churches everywhere tomorrow (Sunday). It sort of reminds me of a story I read after the 2004 election in the States, when a church tore itself apart after the pastor said that anyone who voted Democrat should leave the church.
How far can politics intertwine with the Church? Is voting Republican a must if one is a Christian, based on abortion and gay marriage stances? What is right?
Of course, I personally thought it to be despicable. The translator may have been assumed to be of the same opinion as the speaker, because they were both pastors. They may not have shared the same views. At the same time, it was hardly evident that Conservatives stood up for moral values anyway. We haven't seen anything done in the 2 plus years that Stephen Harper has been in charge. Yes, a gay marriage reversal would cause an uproar... but then why does it matter who we vote for if none will change it (assuming one is against gay marriage, which I am not really against)? To be honest, if the Liberals come up with a better policy to help the environment and the economy, and to cut taxes, I'd probably vote for them.
In the same way, it happens in every election. A lot of Evangelicals were frustrated when the choice was between Obama and McCain, who is relatively moderate and not very strong on the issues. However, the addition of Palin, a strong conservative, has caused a lot of Evangelical leaders to throw their support behind McCain. Radio show hosts such as James Dobson have told viewers to vote McCain (many had blasted McCain in the past), and I'm assuming it will happen again in churches everywhere tomorrow (Sunday). It sort of reminds me of a story I read after the 2004 election in the States, when a church tore itself apart after the pastor said that anyone who voted Democrat should leave the church.
How far can politics intertwine with the Church? Is voting Republican a must if one is a Christian, based on abortion and gay marriage stances? What is right?
Waking Up To A Brand New Morning
Everyday is a new day. Whether I'm here, far, wherever. The sun rises. Another day of beauty.
Friday, August 29, 2008
Sarah Palin
Wow.
Personally, I thought that was an amazing pick by McCain. From an issues standpoint, she is an extremely strong conservative. They both have significant distaste for pork-barrel spending, with Palin leading the charge in Alaska against her own party members. That's honesty right there.
From a political standpoint, it makes a lot of sense. Disgruntled Clinton voters and other undecided women (Of all undecided voters, women count for 55% of them) will have to take a look at the suddenly progressively-looking party. Palin's strong conservative background will reassure conservatives who were wary of McCain's moderate stances on many issues, and should draw voters from Barr back to McCain. She seemingly matches up very well against Obama, and has experience at the executive level, something Obama and his running mate (Biden) lack.
Oh, and she's pretty. Yeah, I know that's shallow. But does anything think that Belinda Stronach would've gotten elected under both the Liberal and Conservative Parties in Canada for an MP spot if she wasn't pretty either? It's sad, but looks do play an important part in politics.
So yes, so far, all signs point to a thumbs up for me. Most of the people criticizing the decision are strong Obama supporters anyway. The references to Clinton and Ferraro in her acceptance speech were a bit cheesy and obvious draw at the disgruntled supporters, but hey, if it works, it works.
Personally, I think whichever party wins this year gets to take over a nosediving economy, gets blamed for when it inevitably struggles, and will lose the election in 2012.
Personally, I thought that was an amazing pick by McCain. From an issues standpoint, she is an extremely strong conservative. They both have significant distaste for pork-barrel spending, with Palin leading the charge in Alaska against her own party members. That's honesty right there.
From a political standpoint, it makes a lot of sense. Disgruntled Clinton voters and other undecided women (Of all undecided voters, women count for 55% of them) will have to take a look at the suddenly progressively-looking party. Palin's strong conservative background will reassure conservatives who were wary of McCain's moderate stances on many issues, and should draw voters from Barr back to McCain. She seemingly matches up very well against Obama, and has experience at the executive level, something Obama and his running mate (Biden) lack.
Oh, and she's pretty. Yeah, I know that's shallow. But does anything think that Belinda Stronach would've gotten elected under both the Liberal and Conservative Parties in Canada for an MP spot if she wasn't pretty either? It's sad, but looks do play an important part in politics.
So yes, so far, all signs point to a thumbs up for me. Most of the people criticizing the decision are strong Obama supporters anyway. The references to Clinton and Ferraro in her acceptance speech were a bit cheesy and obvious draw at the disgruntled supporters, but hey, if it works, it works.
Personally, I think whichever party wins this year gets to take over a nosediving economy, gets blamed for when it inevitably struggles, and will lose the election in 2012.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
House Bunny
Ehh, average, in my opinion. I wasn't disappointed... in fact, it was a pleasant surprise (mainly because I thought the movie would be horrendous). I may not have loved it, but at least I didn't come out thinking that they swindled me of $9.
In other non-related news, Grouse Grind is on again this Saturday... anyone interested? In the past week my stomach has started to bulge, so yes...
In other non-related news, Grouse Grind is on again this Saturday... anyone interested? In the past week my stomach has started to bulge, so yes...
Monday, August 25, 2008
True Worship
1 Hour Later, through a worn-down guitar, my best friend and loving sister, two voices, and real longing and earnest prayer, I think I have discovered what true worship is, once again.
And it's something I'll look forward to. Every single time.
That may have been one of the most amazing events I have ever experienced. Right in our basement.
And it's something I'll look forward to. Every single time.
That may have been one of the most amazing events I have ever experienced. Right in our basement.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Grouse Grind
Today, I tried out the Grouse Grind trail up in North Vancouver...
Man, was it killer. My legs were so sore afterwards, and had cramped up at one point in the middle of the hike. I went through tons of water (and even stopped to eat a muffin). My lower body was just tortured.
Of course, I continually talked to no end, and my breathing was okay. In fact, I wasn't feeling fatigued or anything. Just my legs. They were going to fall off. (Fortunately, they didn't).
Apparently that's just a practice run for next week too.
Man, was it killer. My legs were so sore afterwards, and had cramped up at one point in the middle of the hike. I went through tons of water (and even stopped to eat a muffin). My lower body was just tortured.
Of course, I continually talked to no end, and my breathing was okay. In fact, I wasn't feeling fatigued or anything. Just my legs. They were going to fall off. (Fortunately, they didn't).
Apparently that's just a practice run for next week too.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
I Can Rest
Sleeping at 9 something at night is quite relaxing, albeit weird on my body. No wonder I can't get back to bed anymore.
This... is interesting, to say the least.
This... is interesting, to say the least.
Monday, August 18, 2008
Congratulations!
I'd just like to say... congratulations to Davidson and Krista on their marriage today :) (Sunday, since technically the day has past, but whatever).
One day I want to get married.
One day I want to get married.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Faith Enough?
You know... I have been wondering lately: How much faith is faith enough?
I mean, we hear stories of extreme faith. Martin Luther going against the church in that period of time. Peter and Paul and the others suffering for being who they were. Shadrach, Meshach and Abendigo. Martyrs, even today. They all were strong enough to stand for what they believed in, and to trust God. But, as the trio of wise men said in Babylon, even if God decided that it was the end of their time, they would still be faithful to God, as he had, and would always be, faithful to them.
And then you look at Jesus. He found the most undesirable circumstances to reveal who he was. Walking on water... in the stormy weather. Feeding the multitudes... when they were hungry and desolate. He didn't magically take out food at any random time.
And then we read Matthew 17:20. With faith equivalent in size to that of a mustard seed, we can move mountains. Personally, I wonder if it is a literal or a figurative mountain, because that would make a huge difference in my mind. A literal mountain would mean that almost no one has that kind of faith in modern day times... or that if we had that kind of faith, we probably are pretty tight with God and don't need to move mountains to prove anything. A figurative mountain... that's something we see all the time. People do amazing things, and they see amazing miracles.
In Romans, it's pretty clear that faith leads to salvation. Of course, faith leads to works and whatnot... but that first step... stepping out into the open and "risking" everything. That's what's hard. And maybe that's what I struggle with.
Meanwhile, I wonder whether my faith is faith enough.
I mean, we hear stories of extreme faith. Martin Luther going against the church in that period of time. Peter and Paul and the others suffering for being who they were. Shadrach, Meshach and Abendigo. Martyrs, even today. They all were strong enough to stand for what they believed in, and to trust God. But, as the trio of wise men said in Babylon, even if God decided that it was the end of their time, they would still be faithful to God, as he had, and would always be, faithful to them.
And then you look at Jesus. He found the most undesirable circumstances to reveal who he was. Walking on water... in the stormy weather. Feeding the multitudes... when they were hungry and desolate. He didn't magically take out food at any random time.
And then we read Matthew 17:20. With faith equivalent in size to that of a mustard seed, we can move mountains. Personally, I wonder if it is a literal or a figurative mountain, because that would make a huge difference in my mind. A literal mountain would mean that almost no one has that kind of faith in modern day times... or that if we had that kind of faith, we probably are pretty tight with God and don't need to move mountains to prove anything. A figurative mountain... that's something we see all the time. People do amazing things, and they see amazing miracles.
In Romans, it's pretty clear that faith leads to salvation. Of course, faith leads to works and whatnot... but that first step... stepping out into the open and "risking" everything. That's what's hard. And maybe that's what I struggle with.
Meanwhile, I wonder whether my faith is faith enough.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Innocence Again
Tonight was my uncle's birthday. His two kids shouted and ran around the restaurant, ignorant of the unfriendly glances and disapproving looks of those at the other tables. Other kids at our table had fun as well.
If only.
If only.
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Thank You (Smoothies!)
Tonight, as I saw Sherry/Sherlene for the final time before they leave for the Philippines (and I for Waterloo), I reminisced. I thought about all the times I asked them (especially Sherlene) to pray for me, and the infinite number of times they showed kindness to me. To quantify such a sacrifice would be too difficult.
So I just wanted to say thank you.
So I just wanted to say thank you.
Friday, August 8, 2008
The Sad State of the "Church"
Have you ever had those times in Sunday School where you were told, "If you do (insert good action here, such as pray), (insert noun) will happen"? I still remember being told that if I was nice to people and if I prayed, I would be blessed with worldly things. I still remember. Of course, to this day, it seems like a pile of nonsense. At the time, though, I remember eagerly praying and waiting, hoping to get what I wanted. Eventually, however, I grew up from that. If you really need ulterior motives to do good things, then there's a real problem.
Unfortunately, it seems that some people haven't grown up. I don't want to drone on... so, I'll just say this. Prosperity Teaching is essentially... give money, do some things, and you will be blessed on Earth. Forget the fact that Jesus suffered, that Paul, John the Baptist, and Peter suffered. Or that tons of Christians, such as Martin Luther King Jr., have paid heavy prices for their work, even today. I guess they don't count.
I am currently reading through a script of Joel Osteen, the ordained preacher at Lakewood Church, on Larry King Live. Some of the gems...
"OSTEEN: Well, I think in a sense when you see certain things in society you would think that. But in another sense I see faith in America. Faith in the world. At an all-time high today. When I was growing up it was a big deal to have a church of 1,000. Now there's churches of 10,000. So many of them. So I think in one sense I can agree with that point. But in another sense I see a real spiritual awakening taking place."
It's sad for Osteen to be so naive. People often like to think that going to church regularly on Easter and Christmas shows commitment or devotion. Others like to think listening to the sermon every week (being a Sunday Christian) is the way into Heaven.
The fact that so many people attend Lakewood just shows how immense the group of people is that do not actually know what is written in the Bible at all. To be fair, I'm not perfect either. But to miss the integral message in there, the points of scripture... yeah.
The other great part? Osteen never went to seminary. Who knows how much scripture he actually knows. Somehow, based on his father's legacy at Lakewood Church, he was able to get ordained as a pastor without any background. Oh, and if anyone is curious... his best-selling book, "Your Best Life Now," doesn't even quote scripture until the end. How great is that? His reasoning for this is that he wants to reach a mainstream audience. Ugh.
And a couple more...
"KING: How about issues that the church has feelings about? Abortion? Same-sex marriages?
OSTEEN: Yeah. You know what, Larry? I don't go there. I just ..."
"OSTEEN: You wonder why Victoria and I have a great relationship? It's called Victoria's Secret."
http://transcripts.cnn.com/TRANSCRIPTS/0506/20/lkl.01.html
Of course, this may just highlight a bigger problem. We only believe what we want to hear. Prosperity teaching is the most noticeable, because of how far it deviates from what the Word actually says. But it's quite believable that we all like to hear what we want to hear. In a world where Absolute Truth is getting lost in the shuffle, we struggle. It's probably unfair that I keep bringing up Joel Osteen, but it's just that he is such a visible character in today's society.
Anyway, this is already ridiculously long, and I have more to say, but I'll just leave it for tonight.
Unfortunately, it seems that some people haven't grown up. I don't want to drone on... so, I'll just say this. Prosperity Teaching is essentially... give money, do some things, and you will be blessed on Earth. Forget the fact that Jesus suffered, that Paul, John the Baptist, and Peter suffered. Or that tons of Christians, such as Martin Luther King Jr., have paid heavy prices for their work, even today. I guess they don't count.
I am currently reading through a script of Joel Osteen, the ordained preacher at Lakewood Church, on Larry King Live. Some of the gems...
"OSTEEN: Well, I think in a sense when you see certain things in society you would think that. But in another sense I see faith in America. Faith in the world. At an all-time high today. When I was growing up it was a big deal to have a church of 1,000. Now there's churches of 10,000. So many of them. So I think in one sense I can agree with that point. But in another sense I see a real spiritual awakening taking place."
It's sad for Osteen to be so naive. People often like to think that going to church regularly on Easter and Christmas shows commitment or devotion. Others like to think listening to the sermon every week (being a Sunday Christian) is the way into Heaven.
The fact that so many people attend Lakewood just shows how immense the group of people is that do not actually know what is written in the Bible at all. To be fair, I'm not perfect either. But to miss the integral message in there, the points of scripture... yeah.
The other great part? Osteen never went to seminary. Who knows how much scripture he actually knows. Somehow, based on his father's legacy at Lakewood Church, he was able to get ordained as a pastor without any background. Oh, and if anyone is curious... his best-selling book, "Your Best Life Now," doesn't even quote scripture until the end. How great is that? His reasoning for this is that he wants to reach a mainstream audience. Ugh.
And a couple more...
"KING: How about issues that the church has feelings about? Abortion? Same-sex marriages?
OSTEEN: Yeah. You know what, Larry? I don't go there. I just ..."
"OSTEEN: You wonder why Victoria and I have a great relationship? It's called Victoria's Secret."
http://transcripts.cnn.com/TRANSCRIPTS/0506/20/lkl.01.html
Of course, this may just highlight a bigger problem. We only believe what we want to hear. Prosperity teaching is the most noticeable, because of how far it deviates from what the Word actually says. But it's quite believable that we all like to hear what we want to hear. In a world where Absolute Truth is getting lost in the shuffle, we struggle. It's probably unfair that I keep bringing up Joel Osteen, but it's just that he is such a visible character in today's society.
Anyway, this is already ridiculously long, and I have more to say, but I'll just leave it for tonight.
A Usual Day at CNN
I was just browsing through CNN, as usual, when I ran into this interesting story about a pastor.
Or... you know... this. Of course, this one is related to the wife of the largest and most vocal preacher of prosperity teaching.
You start to wonder, what is the difference? It really is unfortunate, the way the world works.
Or... you know... this. Of course, this one is related to the wife of the largest and most vocal preacher of prosperity teaching.
You start to wonder, what is the difference? It really is unfortunate, the way the world works.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Blogging is a Two-Way Experience
Blogging really is a two-way experience. This isn't really my journal. I can do that on my own time.
I know a decent number of you reply to me in person and via msn, but feel free to leave comments as well :) That's always a place to chat!
I know a decent number of you reply to me in person and via msn, but feel free to leave comments as well :) That's always a place to chat!
There's Nothing Like This
There's nothing scary like wondering if a loved one is okay.
And I hope I don't have to go through that again.
And I hope I don't have to go through that again.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Finding Good Music
Anyone have an idea how to do this? I'm not exactly sure where to get music for the iPod Touch I just got, because the music is all stored elsewhere.
Summer Camp, Part 1
So, I'm going to preclude this set of entries with some background. This weekend, I went to Camp Charis in Chilliwack, BC, for a church event. The theme was about Maxing one's flavour, or saltiness.
Hearing Pastor Tim's message, one involving life choices, was really eye-opening for me. The message was about how each person has different talents and enjoyments, and we should each do, as "work", what we enjoy doing. Am I going into accounting because that is what I want to do for the rest of my life? Or do I enter because my parents have told me to? It's hard to remember.
More to come soon as I screen and proofread what I've written down.
Hearing Pastor Tim's message, one involving life choices, was really eye-opening for me. The message was about how each person has different talents and enjoyments, and we should each do, as "work", what we enjoy doing. Am I going into accounting because that is what I want to do for the rest of my life? Or do I enter because my parents have told me to? It's hard to remember.
More to come soon as I screen and proofread what I've written down.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
End of an Era
So, after about 15 months, that was the end of working for Starbucks. You know, it was a pretty good experience. It was my first "real" job, having to deal with people (it's difficult), learn to be efficient, that kind of thing. I really never expected to work this past year, but it just turned out that way.
I enjoyed the discount, the free weekly pound of coffee, the people I met, and the knowledge gained. I appreciate the resume-padding, the food-eating (yum), and the wallet stuffing, of course.
There were frustrating moments. Moments where I embarrassed myself. Or humiliated myself. Or found myself incapable.
But you know what... it was a learning experience. I don't regret it at all. Even though I'll be going to Waterloo and not working while I'm studying... because I'm in a Co-Op program, I can go into those interviews knowing what it is like to have been in an interview. To be able to confidently say that I understand what it is to be stressed (though, to be fair, I'd hardly call working at Starbucks stressful, most of the time). I can flaunt my credentials.
Oh, and that new Vivanno stuff is good too.
I enjoyed the discount, the free weekly pound of coffee, the people I met, and the knowledge gained. I appreciate the resume-padding, the food-eating (yum), and the wallet stuffing, of course.
There were frustrating moments. Moments where I embarrassed myself. Or humiliated myself. Or found myself incapable.
But you know what... it was a learning experience. I don't regret it at all. Even though I'll be going to Waterloo and not working while I'm studying... because I'm in a Co-Op program, I can go into those interviews knowing what it is like to have been in an interview. To be able to confidently say that I understand what it is to be stressed (though, to be fair, I'd hardly call working at Starbucks stressful, most of the time). I can flaunt my credentials.
Oh, and that new Vivanno stuff is good too.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
PUs
For those who are curious, PU is a term for Parental Unit. And no, it's not an actual term. I think my sister invented it at one point when speaking to others, as a way of saying she needed parental permission. (Something like... "I need to ask my PUs first").
Which leads me into what I have been thinking about. How important is it to follow our parents religiously? Exodus 20:12 clearly states that. But to what extent?
I mean, it is relatively clear that we should honour our parents when possible. However... should we listen when they ask us to falsify about our age to get a cheaper fee? To tell someone a lie about the parents' whereabouts? To refuse to help someone?
And then, of course, there's always the question between our wills, our parents' wills, and God's will. Clearly, one should be followed. But how do we approach this?
At the same time, this makes it too easy to disobey our parents and to go our own way. Just throw in that excuse, and voila!
Anyway, just a short blurb. Just in my head right now, making me think...
Which leads me into what I have been thinking about. How important is it to follow our parents religiously? Exodus 20:12 clearly states that. But to what extent?
I mean, it is relatively clear that we should honour our parents when possible. However... should we listen when they ask us to falsify about our age to get a cheaper fee? To tell someone a lie about the parents' whereabouts? To refuse to help someone?
And then, of course, there's always the question between our wills, our parents' wills, and God's will. Clearly, one should be followed. But how do we approach this?
At the same time, this makes it too easy to disobey our parents and to go our own way. Just throw in that excuse, and voila!
Anyway, just a short blurb. Just in my head right now, making me think...
Monday, July 28, 2008
A New Computer!
Well, today my father and I went and got a MacBook Pro (15-inch). Very cool stuff. It also came with an iPod Touch (sweet). I've been fooling around with it for a bit and it's quite user-friendly. I think I may stick to Macs more often now.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Theology and "Irreparable Differences"
The sermon today at the church that I will soon be leaving was held by a guest speaker. The man, an Asian, humourous fellow, professed his belief in Calvinism. While prefacing his sermon with the fact that he is not necessarily right on everything, and that church members should follow the teachings of their individual churches (?), he did offer a staunch defense, armed with passages from the Bible and quotes from well-known Christians. The main argument of his was that predestination is real, and that God elects people who, when hearing the word of God, would come to accept it (while all others would not). He also said that it is impossible to know one is actually saved until Jesus returns or he or she leaves this Earth. Other arguments essentially defended Calvinism, mythbusting the rebuttals that claim that Calvinism makes evangelism or whatnot worthless.
Of course, this angered some people. Clearly, if this is true, it would be natural for some people to develop a dislike for God, as the preacher seemed to allude to the fact that God picked people to perish (the verses in scripture supported this). It also makes no reference to The Fall... did God know that was coming? Logically, the answer would be yes. But it doesn't seem that way.
Anyway, I'm not here to argue about Calvinism against Arminianism. My question is, while theologically, there are complete opposites, and really have a profound effect on our world... does it really matter to us at this point? It's good to be knowledgeable (and I am happy to see the sermon come up... honestly, it's appalling to see how many people don't realize that the church we attend believes in predestination)... but should it change the way we act?
Both still promote the Ten Commandments. Honestly, I don't think our behavior should change, regardless of what we believe. And I think that one does not need to know the correct theology (as if that wasn't hard enough) to be a Christian.
So yes. It was a great sermon, and it opened the eyes of many. But we have to remember... it's not everything.
Of course, this angered some people. Clearly, if this is true, it would be natural for some people to develop a dislike for God, as the preacher seemed to allude to the fact that God picked people to perish (the verses in scripture supported this). It also makes no reference to The Fall... did God know that was coming? Logically, the answer would be yes. But it doesn't seem that way.
Anyway, I'm not here to argue about Calvinism against Arminianism. My question is, while theologically, there are complete opposites, and really have a profound effect on our world... does it really matter to us at this point? It's good to be knowledgeable (and I am happy to see the sermon come up... honestly, it's appalling to see how many people don't realize that the church we attend believes in predestination)... but should it change the way we act?
Both still promote the Ten Commandments. Honestly, I don't think our behavior should change, regardless of what we believe. And I think that one does not need to know the correct theology (as if that wasn't hard enough) to be a Christian.
So yes. It was a great sermon, and it opened the eyes of many. But we have to remember... it's not everything.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Leaving
I've hashed and rehashed the subject of leaving for postsecondary already.
But there may be another change I have to make.
With a heavy heart, and after talking to a few very close friends, I have decided that, after August (when I finish playing the piano for the worship team), I will not be returning to Fujian Evangelical Church, at least not in the near future.
Looking introspectively, I found that I have not been growing at the church for a long time now. In fact, I'm unsure why I still attend. In the past, I had no choice, car-less and without a way to attend elsewhere, I went alongside my parents. However, with the freedom now to choose any church I wish (Celine chose Thrive, and I applaud her bravery for that), it is time to move. With Waterloo coming up, I will be at a new church anyway. But I don't see myself coming back to FEC, even during Christmastime or whatnot.
As a traditional Chinese Church, things will always be done a certain way. Our church seems to have been encompassed in a time capsule, never changing or growing. While major events (such as the one two years ago) do occur, shaking up things, in the larger picture, they are just minor blips on an unmoving object. Take a look. Things don't change. Same people, same types of events, same whatever.
Why do we go to church? Do we go for real, pure, reasons (To Worship God? To Learn More?) Or do we go for friends, family, whatever?
I think the answer for me became very clear. And it's time to fix it.
I'm done.
The door isn't locked, but it's closed.
But there may be another change I have to make.
With a heavy heart, and after talking to a few very close friends, I have decided that, after August (when I finish playing the piano for the worship team), I will not be returning to Fujian Evangelical Church, at least not in the near future.
Looking introspectively, I found that I have not been growing at the church for a long time now. In fact, I'm unsure why I still attend. In the past, I had no choice, car-less and without a way to attend elsewhere, I went alongside my parents. However, with the freedom now to choose any church I wish (Celine chose Thrive, and I applaud her bravery for that), it is time to move. With Waterloo coming up, I will be at a new church anyway. But I don't see myself coming back to FEC, even during Christmastime or whatnot.
As a traditional Chinese Church, things will always be done a certain way. Our church seems to have been encompassed in a time capsule, never changing or growing. While major events (such as the one two years ago) do occur, shaking up things, in the larger picture, they are just minor blips on an unmoving object. Take a look. Things don't change. Same people, same types of events, same whatever.
Why do we go to church? Do we go for real, pure, reasons (To Worship God? To Learn More?) Or do we go for friends, family, whatever?
I think the answer for me became very clear. And it's time to fix it.
I'm done.
The door isn't locked, but it's closed.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Agape
Where do I find this?
It's not in my closet.
Nor on my computer.
Not in my car, or at school.
And it's sometimes definitely not found in the way I am towards others.
It's not in my closet.
Nor on my computer.
Not in my car, or at school.
And it's sometimes definitely not found in the way I am towards others.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Taking Sides
Yesterday, I was at a party when I noticed something interesting. Everyone in attendance held a certain belief.
Now, this isn't, in itself, what is wrong with the situation.
The real problem lies in the fact that everyone invited held a certain side in a relatively large argument. The more saddening part? This argument happened almost two years ago now.
Which brings me to the fact that wounds take a long time to heal. One would expect that adults could learn to forgive. Clearly, it is not human nature to do so.
To be fair, I'm sure that the flip side has happened, that the other "side" has had the same things as well. That doesn't make it right. For everyone. This only divides further, and, if it continues, will create a neverending cycle downwards.
In short... the healing process has stalled. Or hasn't begun. People from all over will point to others as the reasons behind this failure to reunite... but everyone is to blame.
That's not to say that things should be swept under the rug. But we don't have to yell.
As for the party, it was a ton of fun hanging out with the other children (who, I suppose, are quite innocent from this mess), but that didn't mean that this lingered on the back of my mind.
Now, this isn't, in itself, what is wrong with the situation.
The real problem lies in the fact that everyone invited held a certain side in a relatively large argument. The more saddening part? This argument happened almost two years ago now.
Which brings me to the fact that wounds take a long time to heal. One would expect that adults could learn to forgive. Clearly, it is not human nature to do so.
To be fair, I'm sure that the flip side has happened, that the other "side" has had the same things as well. That doesn't make it right. For everyone. This only divides further, and, if it continues, will create a neverending cycle downwards.
In short... the healing process has stalled. Or hasn't begun. People from all over will point to others as the reasons behind this failure to reunite... but everyone is to blame.
That's not to say that things should be swept under the rug. But we don't have to yell.
As for the party, it was a ton of fun hanging out with the other children (who, I suppose, are quite innocent from this mess), but that didn't mean that this lingered on the back of my mind.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
My Ten Favourite Songs of All Time
I don't know what compelled me to write this, but I want to throw out some plugs. Listening to these songs again remind me of the sentimental and enjoyable feelings I had. They range in genre and artist (a lot of Nichole Nordeman), but all have influenced me in some small way.
10. Mandy Moore - Only Hope
Although this was originally performed by Switchfoot, I just love the way Mandy sings this one (A Walk To Remember). The piano accompaniment beats the one provided by Switchfoot, and the lyrics never fail to astound me.
The lyrics are a bit vague, which is why some understandably think it's about a relationship with a guy. But nonetheless, they are written beautifully, referencing the longing to be with God and the struggles in our journey there.
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=U4DjOTfz1ik)
9. Joy Williams - I'm In Love With You
This acoustic-based love song (guitar/piano throughout) is just exceptional. The background doesn't impede, but enhances the words coming out of Joy's mouth. Creative references such as "leaving dreams" avoid repetitive cliques (although there are some in this song). I've played this a few times on the guitar, and I love it. Aside from "I Will Be Here" (from Steven Curtis Chapman), this is the song I love to perform for others.
Actually, I don't know why I adore this song. I can't really pinpoint what is so amazing about it. It's definitely a case where the sum is greater than its parts. So, yes, listen to it. It makes you wonder why Joy had to retire from singing.
(Link: http://www.myspace.com/joywilliamsmusic)
8. Nichole Nordeman - Every Season
So it is with You
And how You make me new
With every season’s change
And so it will be
As You are re-creating me
Summer, autumn, winter, spring
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=-dwpdZdvCl8)
7. Sufjan Stevens - The Predatory Wasp of the Palisades Is Out to Get Us!
Yes, the title is abnormally long. Classic Sufjan stuff. This piano ballad is a story of how Sufjan lost his best friend through some seemingly harmless joke or whatnot (the song is not very clear on this). The beauty that emanates throughout, however, is something to be adored. From a build-up from an acoustic guitar to a full band (including some more classical orchestra instruments) and a dying down to a mere simple conclusion. Just listen to it and find out for yourself.
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=Rf5kG8drKaM)
6. Something Like Silas - Anchor of My Soul
The only worship song I have on this list (I'm generally not a tremendous fan of worship music... it's nice, but I find it a bit repetitive, lacking creativity and sometimes boring), it is, in fact, one of the less creative songs churned out by one of the best worship artists I've ever heard. The lead band of the modern church Flood, this band has come up with some great stuff (including using allusions and references not common in music) that vary from the awfully quiet to the rock-like tunes. However, this tune is relatively simplistic. It talks about how we've sinned, and is a plea for forgiveness from the One himself. I've played it once at Kairos Worship before, it's unfortunate I never got to follow up on this song.
(Couldn't find a link... sorry)
5. Nichole Nordeman - To Know You
Be patient with my doubt
I'm just tryin' to figure out Your will
And I really want to know You still
One of her first biggest hits, Nichole's sheer honesty comes out in this song, something we, unfortunately, rarely see in music nowadays. Others disguise their weakness, talking about God's holiness and grace. That's cool too (except when the songs all start sounding the same). But Nichole takes a totally different approach in this piece. She admits that she sometimes doubts God's existence, comparing herself to the disciple Thomas. At the end, Nichole makes a pledge to become more strong and adamant in her faith. Unlike most of her stronger pieces, this one does not involve her playing on the piano (much), but the lyrics remain powerful and true.
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=13JKVABz5p0)
4. Nichole Nordeman - Why (Live)
Nichole writes this in the perspective of a young girl in Jesus' time on Earth. This piano ballad (I don't know if she ever recorded it... she performed it live and it ended up on one of her CDs) is astounding. It's believable (the way it is written could be from a young girl), and the different tones of voice and whatnot between Nichole, Jesus and God are interwoven perfectly.
The end climaxes with some powerful vocals and powerful accompaniment. Nichole is an amazing pianist. I can only aspire to be like her.
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=BESAc3LRrUg)
3. Avalon - You Were There
Although Avalon has tailed off recently, they were once proud with some of the strongest ballads (Their Euro-pop songs were quite good too). Mostly led by a piano originally (before it escalates into some extremely powerful vocals... it's absolutely beautiful the way it turns out), this one involved Jody (yes, a guy... he even sounds like a girl) referencing different Biblical events, noting how Jesus and God influenced them, and shaped these events in the way they did. In the bridge, Jody ascribes God as the meaning behind everything, and in the final verse, Jesus' death on the cross and it's significance is portrayed by a quiet saddened tone. Nonetheless, another one to not miss out on.
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=nutVz94Uhcs)
2. Eisley - Brightly Wound
I love Eisley. Easily one of my top 3 favourite artists. Although all their songs are extremely solid (and melodic in some eerie ways), none stands out as much as this one. An excerpt from a review I wrote years ago should describe it perfectly:
"Eisley continues on with another slow song (call it a ballad?) However, this one is amazingly touching, as Stacy and Sherri once again harmonize and intertwine their singing, creating an irresistible sound. Yet, even in this very harmonious moment, the drum finds its way into the song, making it even more beautiful. The lyrics include a lot of fantasy (dragons?) and seems like another love song, though the lyrics really leave the meaning open-ended."
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=iMaMXeDl9lg)
1. Nichole Nordeman - I Am
I don't know what to say. This song is perfect. It's the only song that can make me cry usually. Listen to it.
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=ieVIW_NQoH0)
Barely Missing The Cut
11. Mandy Moore - Cry
12. Avalon - Orphans Of God
13. Phil Joel - The Man You Want Me To Be
14. Sanctus Real - The Face of Love
15. Backstreet Boys - I Still
16. Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss Me
17. Natalie Grant - The Real Me
18. Jars of Clay - Faith Enough
19. Acceptance - Different
20. Cool Hand Luke - Cinematic
10. Mandy Moore - Only Hope
Although this was originally performed by Switchfoot, I just love the way Mandy sings this one (A Walk To Remember). The piano accompaniment beats the one provided by Switchfoot, and the lyrics never fail to astound me.
The lyrics are a bit vague, which is why some understandably think it's about a relationship with a guy. But nonetheless, they are written beautifully, referencing the longing to be with God and the struggles in our journey there.
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=U4DjOTfz1ik)
9. Joy Williams - I'm In Love With You
This acoustic-based love song (guitar/piano throughout) is just exceptional. The background doesn't impede, but enhances the words coming out of Joy's mouth. Creative references such as "leaving dreams" avoid repetitive cliques (although there are some in this song). I've played this a few times on the guitar, and I love it. Aside from "I Will Be Here" (from Steven Curtis Chapman), this is the song I love to perform for others.
Actually, I don't know why I adore this song. I can't really pinpoint what is so amazing about it. It's definitely a case where the sum is greater than its parts. So, yes, listen to it. It makes you wonder why Joy had to retire from singing.
(Link: http://www.myspace.com/joywilliamsmusic)
8. Nichole Nordeman - Every Season
So it is with You
And how You make me new
With every season’s change
And so it will be
As You are re-creating me
Summer, autumn, winter, spring
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=-dwpdZdvCl8)
7. Sufjan Stevens - The Predatory Wasp of the Palisades Is Out to Get Us!
Yes, the title is abnormally long. Classic Sufjan stuff. This piano ballad is a story of how Sufjan lost his best friend through some seemingly harmless joke or whatnot (the song is not very clear on this). The beauty that emanates throughout, however, is something to be adored. From a build-up from an acoustic guitar to a full band (including some more classical orchestra instruments) and a dying down to a mere simple conclusion. Just listen to it and find out for yourself.
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=Rf5kG8drKaM)
6. Something Like Silas - Anchor of My Soul
The only worship song I have on this list (I'm generally not a tremendous fan of worship music... it's nice, but I find it a bit repetitive, lacking creativity and sometimes boring), it is, in fact, one of the less creative songs churned out by one of the best worship artists I've ever heard. The lead band of the modern church Flood, this band has come up with some great stuff (including using allusions and references not common in music) that vary from the awfully quiet to the rock-like tunes. However, this tune is relatively simplistic. It talks about how we've sinned, and is a plea for forgiveness from the One himself. I've played it once at Kairos Worship before, it's unfortunate I never got to follow up on this song.
(Couldn't find a link... sorry)
5. Nichole Nordeman - To Know You
Be patient with my doubt
I'm just tryin' to figure out Your will
And I really want to know You still
One of her first biggest hits, Nichole's sheer honesty comes out in this song, something we, unfortunately, rarely see in music nowadays. Others disguise their weakness, talking about God's holiness and grace. That's cool too (except when the songs all start sounding the same). But Nichole takes a totally different approach in this piece. She admits that she sometimes doubts God's existence, comparing herself to the disciple Thomas. At the end, Nichole makes a pledge to become more strong and adamant in her faith. Unlike most of her stronger pieces, this one does not involve her playing on the piano (much), but the lyrics remain powerful and true.
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=13JKVABz5p0)
4. Nichole Nordeman - Why (Live)
Nichole writes this in the perspective of a young girl in Jesus' time on Earth. This piano ballad (I don't know if she ever recorded it... she performed it live and it ended up on one of her CDs) is astounding. It's believable (the way it is written could be from a young girl), and the different tones of voice and whatnot between Nichole, Jesus and God are interwoven perfectly.
The end climaxes with some powerful vocals and powerful accompaniment. Nichole is an amazing pianist. I can only aspire to be like her.
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=BESAc3LRrUg)
3. Avalon - You Were There
Although Avalon has tailed off recently, they were once proud with some of the strongest ballads (Their Euro-pop songs were quite good too). Mostly led by a piano originally (before it escalates into some extremely powerful vocals... it's absolutely beautiful the way it turns out), this one involved Jody (yes, a guy... he even sounds like a girl) referencing different Biblical events, noting how Jesus and God influenced them, and shaped these events in the way they did. In the bridge, Jody ascribes God as the meaning behind everything, and in the final verse, Jesus' death on the cross and it's significance is portrayed by a quiet saddened tone. Nonetheless, another one to not miss out on.
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=nutVz94Uhcs)
2. Eisley - Brightly Wound
I love Eisley. Easily one of my top 3 favourite artists. Although all their songs are extremely solid (and melodic in some eerie ways), none stands out as much as this one. An excerpt from a review I wrote years ago should describe it perfectly:
"Eisley continues on with another slow song (call it a ballad?) However, this one is amazingly touching, as Stacy and Sherri once again harmonize and intertwine their singing, creating an irresistible sound. Yet, even in this very harmonious moment, the drum finds its way into the song, making it even more beautiful. The lyrics include a lot of fantasy (dragons?) and seems like another love song, though the lyrics really leave the meaning open-ended."
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=iMaMXeDl9lg)
1. Nichole Nordeman - I Am
I don't know what to say. This song is perfect. It's the only song that can make me cry usually. Listen to it.
(Link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=ieVIW_NQoH0)
Barely Missing The Cut
11. Mandy Moore - Cry
12. Avalon - Orphans Of God
13. Phil Joel - The Man You Want Me To Be
14. Sanctus Real - The Face of Love
15. Backstreet Boys - I Still
16. Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss Me
17. Natalie Grant - The Real Me
18. Jars of Clay - Faith Enough
19. Acceptance - Different
20. Cool Hand Luke - Cinematic
Monday, July 14, 2008
Book Recommendations
On a lighter note, I was wondering if anyone had some good books to read. Because of my self-imposed limit on the computer, I really need some new reading material.
Comment here/shoot me an e-mail/msn me (which seems to be the method of preference).
Comment here/shoot me an e-mail/msn me (which seems to be the method of preference).
Friday, July 11, 2008
The End
And that was the end of Vacation Bible School, a memorable, unforgettable week.
Just another nail in the coffin. A way of leaving and not coming back.
But with every end, there is a new beginning
Just another nail in the coffin. A way of leaving and not coming back.
But with every end, there is a new beginning
Monday, July 7, 2008
Day 1 of Vacation Bible School
WOW.
I guess it's going to be a long week. An enjoyable one at that, but trying to manage one of the kids has driven me to the wall. He just runs around everywhere (infinite energy?) and cannot settle down. Wish me luck.
One of the girls in grade 2 did not show up, unfortunately. It may be awkward for her, however, as the other 4 group members are all classmates. Ahh, I feel for her.
My assistant, Michelle, was new, but extremely good with working with the two girls in the class. It helped me divert my focus towards the two guys, who were quite rowdy.
Oh, and it's quite embarrassing when you're a 17-year old guy and are into the songs (singing/actions) much more than any of the children.
Day one over... day two is just beginning!
I guess it's going to be a long week. An enjoyable one at that, but trying to manage one of the kids has driven me to the wall. He just runs around everywhere (infinite energy?) and cannot settle down. Wish me luck.
One of the girls in grade 2 did not show up, unfortunately. It may be awkward for her, however, as the other 4 group members are all classmates. Ahh, I feel for her.
My assistant, Michelle, was new, but extremely good with working with the two girls in the class. It helped me divert my focus towards the two guys, who were quite rowdy.
Oh, and it's quite embarrassing when you're a 17-year old guy and are into the songs (singing/actions) much more than any of the children.
Day one over... day two is just beginning!
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Healthy Eating
Since I don't REALLY count calories (only when I want to, or only when I'm in one of those paranoid moods), I think I've been getting a bit tubby. Yes, I know that drinking 3 starbucks drinks per day (hey, at least I generally don't ingest any caffeine from these) and eating a whole pack of crackers late at night isn't exactly the right way to go. And yes, the bubble tea I've been having lately at Estea is probably destroying my cholesterol...
Nonetheless, I've been trying to exercise. My fitness-related activities this summer (so far) have included playing ultimate*,going for a run everyday, working out my finger muscles on the computer, and doing pushups in front of the TV**.
Today, I played ultimate*again, even though I happened to be one of the worst people there (since there were some people on the Provincial team who decided to show up). Nonetheless, it was pretty scary. I'm pretty sure I was one of the weaker ones there too. Two of the other girls there practice Mixed Martial Arts recreationally, and the others didn't look exactly puny either. They could probably beat me up if they wanted to. Then again, I think that's how its always been. Hmm.
It's interesting, because my dad, for awhile, worked very hard to have a toned body. Of course, it's not really in our genes, and within a year of stopping, he lost everything. So, really, what's the point? I know when I fly off to Waterloo I'm going to be eating burgers and fries everyday anyway. I might as well save the hassle and get used to having a beerbelly, right?
So... any ideas out there with how to save my flabby abs? I should probably start with cutting down on the unhealthy food I eat. *Crunches on garlic croutons*
* Playing ultimate refers to playing a grand total of 1 hour
** Cumulative pushup count at under 40
Nonetheless, I've been trying to exercise. My fitness-related activities this summer (so far) have included playing ultimate*,
Today, I played ultimate*
It's interesting, because my dad, for awhile, worked very hard to have a toned body. Of course, it's not really in our genes, and within a year of stopping, he lost everything. So, really, what's the point? I know when I fly off to Waterloo I'm going to be eating burgers and fries everyday anyway. I might as well save the hassle and get used to having a beerbelly, right?
So... any ideas out there with how to save my flabby abs? I should probably start with cutting down on the unhealthy food I eat. *Crunches on garlic croutons*
* Playing ultimate refers to playing a grand total of 1 hour
** Cumulative pushup count at under 40
Friday, July 4, 2008
Why?
One wonders how and why we can possibly have so little regard and concern for others around us. Constant television ads for World Vision and other humanitarian organizations blare on the screens which we treasure so dearly. Representatives speak at schools, groups and other places of interest, where people can learn about the struggles and the strife that occurs all around the world. Throw a couple of dollars, get a nice tax receipt anyway... the money is always useful, but you don't really lose much, do you?
Yet we all seem to forget those nearby. There are tens of thousands of people living in the Downtown East Side (DTES), but they are given the cold shoulder treatment by the citizens of Vancouver. Government policy clearly has not worked (See: Low-Income Housing), and the new Tory government in power since early 2006 has managed to implement an extremely conservative (any surprise?) fiscal policy. The fact is that there are very few who take the time out there to display kindness to the people unfortunate enough to be living in these areas.
Still, it's hard to imagine this kind of pain. In the past, I've seen videos, newspaper clippings, presentations, and whatnot, about this topic. It never hit me as hard as it did today, volunteering at a street church. Dozens of people lined up to receive a hot dog, along with either coffee or water. Music, along with a sermon, was presented by volunteers. Very few stayed, with most choosing to receive the food before leaving the single-room entity immediately. I had the opportunity to talk to someone who came for coffee and food, and although the conversation was not sparkling, it hopefully meant being friendly to the guy and helping him realize that there are people out there who really care for him. Nonetheless, it still saddened me to see them lacking much hope for a bright future.
What hit me hardest, however, was when I looked out the back window and caught sight of one of the people who had previously received a hot dog. The man was just walking outside... but I struggled with how it was. Was there a way to really help them in the long run? Hot dogs can feed them for a day, but it doesn't fix a single major problem.
There has to be something that can be done. Living in ignorance of this fact won't help.
Yet we all seem to forget those nearby. There are tens of thousands of people living in the Downtown East Side (DTES), but they are given the cold shoulder treatment by the citizens of Vancouver. Government policy clearly has not worked (See: Low-Income Housing), and the new Tory government in power since early 2006 has managed to implement an extremely conservative (any surprise?) fiscal policy. The fact is that there are very few who take the time out there to display kindness to the people unfortunate enough to be living in these areas.
Still, it's hard to imagine this kind of pain. In the past, I've seen videos, newspaper clippings, presentations, and whatnot, about this topic. It never hit me as hard as it did today, volunteering at a street church. Dozens of people lined up to receive a hot dog, along with either coffee or water. Music, along with a sermon, was presented by volunteers. Very few stayed, with most choosing to receive the food before leaving the single-room entity immediately. I had the opportunity to talk to someone who came for coffee and food, and although the conversation was not sparkling, it hopefully meant being friendly to the guy and helping him realize that there are people out there who really care for him. Nonetheless, it still saddened me to see them lacking much hope for a bright future.
What hit me hardest, however, was when I looked out the back window and caught sight of one of the people who had previously received a hot dog. The man was just walking outside... but I struggled with how it was. Was there a way to really help them in the long run? Hot dogs can feed them for a day, but it doesn't fix a single major problem.
There has to be something that can be done. Living in ignorance of this fact won't help.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Day One: Success!
Hey...
I think I made it through one day. Less than 3 hours of computer, coupled with no TV time. Oh, and of course, no buying new clothes either, hehehe. So far, smooth.
This past week has seen some of my friends depart. A graduation trip to Japan and Hong Kong meant that a few of my close friends left, and I will not see them for awhile, and, in a couple of cases, ever. This upcoming weekend, another three will leave.
This made me wonder about the continuation of life. How do we move on? What can we do to ease the process?
I got some stuff from Waterloo today. Some personally written messages from members of the Waterloo community to help me feel welcome. Will I share the same sentiments? Will I find people similar to me? I know when I went there twice, I couldn't find a single person who shared my interests. They were all quite.... nerdy.
Anyway, I was blessed to meet a few new people today. Of course, it seems to hardly matter when a loss of communication is bound to happen nearly immediately.
Nonetheless, prepare for a plethora of posts as I near the start of university.
I think I made it through one day. Less than 3 hours of computer, coupled with no TV time. Oh, and of course, no buying new clothes either, hehehe. So far, smooth.
This past week has seen some of my friends depart. A graduation trip to Japan and Hong Kong meant that a few of my close friends left, and I will not see them for awhile, and, in a couple of cases, ever. This upcoming weekend, another three will leave.
This made me wonder about the continuation of life. How do we move on? What can we do to ease the process?
I got some stuff from Waterloo today. Some personally written messages from members of the Waterloo community to help me feel welcome. Will I share the same sentiments? Will I find people similar to me? I know when I went there twice, I couldn't find a single person who shared my interests. They were all quite.... nerdy.
Anyway, I was blessed to meet a few new people today. Of course, it seems to hardly matter when a loss of communication is bound to happen nearly immediately.
Nonetheless, prepare for a plethora of posts as I near the start of university.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Resolutions: Simplifying Life
I think that I need to simplify life a bit. I've thought about the money I spend wastefully, and about the time I lose by myself on the computer or sitting in front of the couch watching TV.
So I've come up with a list of what I will do, commencing immediately.
Any other recommendations? I know these changes are wimpy and small, but I gotta start somewhere.
Be prepared to see less of me on MSN.
So I've come up with a list of what I will do, commencing immediately.
- Limit TV time to 5 hours a week. Yes, it's cheating. That should allow me for 1 hour for Grey's Anatomy, and 3 hours for Big Brother (when BB is not on, I will cut this down to 3 hours a week) and one hour for news/sports. This should save me anywhere from 0 - 6 hours/week (depending on the time of year) to read, enjoy a real Sabbath, give more attention to helping my family with errands, or just having fellowship with friends.
- Limit Computer time to 4.5 hours a day. That sounds like a lot, doesn't it? Consider that I just spent about 11 hours today on the computer, and you can understand. Baby steps. Baby steps. The time saved is enormous here, so much that I might give myself leeway with the TV restriction if I can keep this one religiously. I notice that I rarely have enough time with God nowadays.... this is where I can start. (Oh, PLEASE keep me accountable... if you notice me on msn for a prolonged period of time, TELL ME!)
- Spend less money on clothes. Yes, I am not really frugal at ALL (this one is really gonna kill me too). The money saved, however, is better used towards other things. Getting others nicer gifts. Sponsoring a child. The possibilities are limitless. One thing I know, however, is that wherever it goes, it's gonna be a much better alternative than getting myself a new outfit. Oh, and if you've ever seen my closet... I don't wear about 50% of what's in there. So I definitely don't need anything else. Maybe a winter jacket/boots so I don't get hypothermia in Ontario... but other than that... yeah.
- Walk to work. I won't always do this... but if work starts later than 9:00 AM/ends before 8:30 PM (so it's not dark outside or whatnot), I will walk to work to save on the gas. Monetary reasons, once again. Plus, the exercise is good for me. AND the walk to work is so scenic, it will help me enjoy God's creation once again. In the future, I may change this to bike to work no matter what, so I don't lose too much sleep hehe.
- NEW: Do not text while eating. I should be able to engage in enjoyable and meaningful conversation with those around me. Texting will not be used as an interruption or distraction anymore. This should save me a lot of time to spend with others (in addition to a bit of money, though not too significant in this case)
Any other recommendations? I know these changes are wimpy and small, but I gotta start somewhere.
Be prepared to see less of me on MSN.
The One
If anyone's curious, my friends and I just spent a few hours on a boring summer afternoon lip syncing a video of Backstreet Boy's "The One"...
Right Here. Don't Laugh.
Make sure you set it to high quality or else the timing seems to be a bit off, unfortunately...
Sorry, that was a bit random, and that was from awhile ago (the title just reminded me of that). On a more serious note, I'm getting the chills about leaving for Waterloo. Everyone else seems to be staying. Church friends, non-church friends, everyone. To be fair, some of my school friends are migrating to some place in the East called the United Kingdom or something, and a couple are heading over South in time to have November's Presidential Election affect the way they live. But really, I'm going to be left alone. And it sucks to be left alone.
I guess I've always been sheltered in some sort of way. Going to church made it easy to find friends. As well, the immense and deep familial connections that my parents have also helped me get to know others. Heading East will erase all of that in some twisted way. Going to a new city, without knowing a single person. I guess I'm going to find out what it feels like to be uprooted.
Fortunately, I had the chance to talk to my cousin yesterday, J.B, who, himself, went to Toronto for his graduate studies. He reminded me that I may have been forgetting God in the equation.
It's funny to think back a bit. Now that I think of it, there's only one thing that hasn't change and won't change, and that is God. The ways he carries me through this new adventure may be different than before, but the blessings will continue to be there. I guess sometimes I try to get through these tests myself. Yet we all know where the truth lies.
God, you're still the same. You have been and always will. Help me to remember what you have given me, and help me let go and trust you.
PS: Nichole Nordeman - I Am
(You may need an account at imeem.com to listen)
Right Here. Don't Laugh.
Make sure you set it to high quality or else the timing seems to be a bit off, unfortunately...
Sorry, that was a bit random, and that was from awhile ago (the title just reminded me of that). On a more serious note, I'm getting the chills about leaving for Waterloo. Everyone else seems to be staying. Church friends, non-church friends, everyone. To be fair, some of my school friends are migrating to some place in the East called the United Kingdom or something, and a couple are heading over South in time to have November's Presidential Election affect the way they live. But really, I'm going to be left alone. And it sucks to be left alone.
I guess I've always been sheltered in some sort of way. Going to church made it easy to find friends. As well, the immense and deep familial connections that my parents have also helped me get to know others. Heading East will erase all of that in some twisted way. Going to a new city, without knowing a single person. I guess I'm going to find out what it feels like to be uprooted.
Fortunately, I had the chance to talk to my cousin yesterday, J.B, who, himself, went to Toronto for his graduate studies. He reminded me that I may have been forgetting God in the equation.
It's funny to think back a bit. Now that I think of it, there's only one thing that hasn't change and won't change, and that is God. The ways he carries me through this new adventure may be different than before, but the blessings will continue to be there. I guess sometimes I try to get through these tests myself. Yet we all know where the truth lies.
God, you're still the same. You have been and always will. Help me to remember what you have given me, and help me let go and trust you.
PS: Nichole Nordeman - I Am
(You may need an account at imeem.com to listen)
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