Leaving

I've hashed and rehashed the subject of leaving for postsecondary already.

But there may be another change I have to make.

With a heavy heart, and after talking to a few very close friends, I have decided that, after August (when I finish playing the piano for the worship team), I will not be returning to Fujian Evangelical Church, at least not in the near future.

Looking introspectively, I found that I have not been growing at the church for a long time now. In fact, I'm unsure why I still attend. In the past, I had no choice, car-less and without a way to attend elsewhere, I went alongside my parents. However, with the freedom now to choose any church I wish (Celine chose Thrive, and I applaud her bravery for that), it is time to move. With Waterloo coming up, I will be at a new church anyway. But I don't see myself coming back to FEC, even during Christmastime or whatnot.

As a traditional Chinese Church, things will always be done a certain way. Our church seems to have been encompassed in a time capsule, never changing or growing. While major events (such as the one two years ago) do occur, shaking up things, in the larger picture, they are just minor blips on an unmoving object. Take a look. Things don't change. Same people, same types of events, same whatever.

Why do we go to church? Do we go for real, pure, reasons (To Worship God? To Learn More?) Or do we go for friends, family, whatever?

I think the answer for me became very clear. And it's time to fix it.

I'm done.

The door isn't locked, but it's closed.