I'm In Love... With Me

As I mentioned, today I locked myself out of my room, being the genius that I am. Of course, that also means a $1 fee to my don. Hopefully that's the last time it happens, or I will be broke soon enough.

I sat in the lounge, flipping through each and every channel, unable to find anything that interested me in the slightest. Oddly enough, a girl (not from the building) comes into the room, and sits, waiting for another guy in the building. And we talk.

Decent-looking (and Asian American), ridiculously intelligent (I would probably classify her as a genius), well-spoken (I think English is her first language), and loves to play video games, especially role playing ones. We talked about her accomplishments, her goals, lots of stuff. And we talked about her personal life.

It turns out she has had 3 boyfriends in 3 weeks (to be more clear... 3 ex-boyfriends). One of them did not attend the school (she met him online in one of the games she played). The other two... she started going out with them within days of meeting each of them. Naturally, I asked how this could happen.

To be honest, I got the answer I expected. She said she falls in "liking" (she was careful enough to not use the word "love" at any point, which one has to appreciate, I suppose) and out of "liking" very quickly.

But my guess is there's more. She keeps hanging out with her ex-es (weird, huh?), and has constantly been trying to visit this guy in our building (which is how I ran into her in the first place, other than the fact that she recognizes me from the Advanced Computer Science class we take together even though I didn't recognize her). I think it's just that we all want to be loved. For some of us, that involves flirting to get that kind of affection. I know I've been a victim of that before.

And I know that I've been a perpetrator. One of my best friends once told me I was a flirt. Of course, she was saying it in a friendly manner, and it was I who brought up the question in the first place. She tried to rationalize it by saying I was just being friendly and whatnot, but it made me wonder. And I guess this conversation today brought it back up. Maybe we just want to be loved.

Maybe I just want to be loved.